The Stroke Show - A Performance at Connie Nielsen's Bachelorette Party
Starring
Emily VanCamp,
Connie Nielsen,
Eiza Gonzalez and
Mary Elizabeth Winstead
Over the years, I have seen many therapists and have talked to them about a variety of topics and issues throughout my life. My current therapist specializes in sex therapy and I went to her to specifically discuss the subject of sex in my life, specifically how secretive and closed off I have been throughout my life regarding the topic and my desire to become more open, less embarrassed and ashamed about sex. In earlier installments of this series, you can see the shame and embarrassment I've gone through during my life and how over the years my view on those past experiences has changed. When I first began with this therapist, I told her I lead three lives: my work life - how my coworkers and colleagues see me, my personal life - how my friends and family see me, and my secret life.
My secret life revolves around my sexuality, my fantasies, and my life as a masturbator - the phone sex calls, the celebrity fantasies, my kinks, my turn-ons, and my writings. During therapy I have often talked about one of my female friends, Emily VanCamp. My therapist asked if I've ever talked to Emily about my secret life. We are good and close friends, I trust her completely, which is what brought up the question. I told her no and she suggested that maybe I talk to her and tell her about my secret life. I was afraid to at first, but after much thought, I did end up telling Emily. After telling her, not only was she not mad or offended nor did she hate me, but she was actually supportive and understanding. Emily assured me that it was completely normal and thanked me for putting enough trust into her to tell her my secret desires, kinks and sexual turn-ons and practices.
I had told Emily about my feelings about one of our mutual friends, Connie Nielsen. Since I've known Connie, she had been in a relationship with the same guy. I told Emily that I had always been attracted to Connie, and since she was in a relationship and I was essentially in her "friend zone" as a result, I knew that I had no chance with her. I confessed that on many occasions I would bring up Connie's Facebook page, save some of her photos of her to my computer, and sit in front of my computer looking at her Facebook page or a slide show of her photos while I pleasured myself. I left no details out when telling Emily. I told her which photos I enjoyed the most, my stroking techniques, the scenarios of my sexual fantasies about Connie. There wasn't anything I didn't tell Emily. I told her that I wished things were different with the world where I didn't have to hide these things and could be completely open with Connie and the world and tell her everything, just as I was telling Emily. I even told Emily that I wanted to get naked in front of Connie and let her watch me pleasure myself to her pictures. When that opportunity came up, Emily was sure to give me the chance to do just that.
After years of being in her relationship, Connie finally got engaged to her boyfriend and asked Emily to be her maid of honor. One responsibility Emily had was to set the bachelorette party. Connie and the bridesmaids were going to get a hotel suite at a luxury hotel in the city for a weekend and go out on the town for her bachelorette party. Emily was originally planning to hire a male stripper to come to the hotel to perform for them, but another idea came to Emily. She asked me if I would be interested in dropping by their hotel suite as the entertainment. I could finally talk to Connie, tell her how I felt, and instead of some stripper taking off his clothes, I could get naked in front of her and her bridesmaids and if I wanted, make love to myself while confessing to her in front of everyone. I reluctantly said "yes" but was extremely nervous and wasn't sure if I could go through with it. Emily suggested that I stop by just to say hello for a moment, and if I wanted to back up, I could head out and not do it.
The night finally arrived. Emily had told everyone that she might have a surprise for Connie but was waiting to see if things would happen. I arrived and as I was making my way up to their suite, I texted Emily that I had arrived so she can meet me at the door outside of the room. She stepped outside and asked me if I still wanted to do it. I told her I was so nervous that I was afraid that I might not be able to get a hard on in front of them, but if I didn't do it, I'd regret letting the opportunity pass by, so I said "yes". Emily brought me into the suite, had me go into the bathroom and wait there. Emily brought everyone in to the living room area where the couch was and had me come out of the bathroom. I came out and saw all of them. The only other bridesmaid I recognized and knew was Eiza Gonzalez. Connie and Eiza were surprised to see me and both got up and gave me a hug before they sat back down. The other introduced herself to me as Mary Elizabeth Winstead. They asked what brought me over and I told all of them that I wanted to congratulate Connie on her wedding and wanted to tell her something. I stood in front of the group and began speaking.
"Connie, I've known you for a long time and we've been friends for years. There's been something I've been wanting to tell you but was always afraid to."
I lifted up and took off my shirt and set it down on the coffee table. Emily grabbed and folded it neatly and set it off to the side. The room got very very quiet.
"I have always been attracted to you and have had a crush on you since I first met you."
I kicked off my shoes before I unbuckled my belt, unbuttoned and unzipped my pants in front of the ladies. I can see their eyes focused on me and Eiza had her mouth agape in shock or surprise at what I was doing.
"I knew this was going to be my last chance to say these things to you before you got married and wanted to confess something to you"
I pulled my pants and underwear down to the floor and stepped out of them, leaving just my socks on.
"Connie, I masturbate thinking about you all the time"
I looked to Emily and Eiza and said "I also do it to the two of you too."
I reached down and removed my socks. Emily gathered everything up and neatly put my clothes aside in a pile. I was standing naked in front of Connie, Emily, Eiza, and Mary completely naked. Something unexpected happened. I thought I'd be so nervous that I wouldn't be able to talk or worse, get an erection in front of the ladies. The opposite happened. I was completely comfortable telling Connie (I had rehearsed this in my head for years) and I was completely aroused. My cock was raging hard and standing at attention in front of the ladies. There was a moment of awkward silence after I stopped talking. The ladies were staring at me and I didn't know what to do.
"Oh no, I'm sorry if this shocked or offended you, should I put my clothes back on?" I said as I tried to cover my hard on with my hands.
They all nodded no. Mary and Connie said "No!" Eiza said "Not on your life." Emily pulled up a chair for me to sit down and get comfortable and walked across the room and brought a couple items to the coffee table: a bottle of lube, a towel and some sanitary wipes. I sat down in the chair and got comfortable. It felt a little cold at first to touch on my skin but things eventually warmed up. I looked at Connie and asked her politely.
"I'd like to masturbate for you and your bridesmaid right now. Is that OK?"
Connie smiled and nodded her head yes. "Yes, It's OK and I'd like to see you do it. I've pretty much known how you've felt about me and that you masturbate. I honestly never thought that you'd do it thinking of me. It's flattering."
"You've known all this time?" I asked.
"Well, yeah. Everyone does it, you're a single guy. They say 90% of men do it, the other 10% are lying. It's an assumption about everyone."
I start to put KY on my left hand to stroke with my non dominant hand. Now that the worry about getting aroused was gone, I had the other worry: premature ejaculation. I was so turned on that I was afraid that the moment I touched myself that I'd fire like a rocket and cum right away. That's not the impression I wanted to give to the ladies that I have no control.
I started to gently stroke myself with my left hand when the atmosphere in the room started to get a little more relaxed. I started interacting with all of the ladies, engaged in casual conversation to them asking about what I was doing and thinking about while masturbating in front of them. Mary asked me how often I masturbated.
"About 2 to 3 times a day on average. When I was younger I did it more often, probably about 5 times a day." I told her.
"Wow, that's a lot. How long does it take to cum?" she asked.
"It depends. On average fifteen to twenty minutes. If I'm gooning, it can be hours."
"What is that?!?!" Connie asked.
I told her what it was. "When you do it for a long time, they say you can get in a trancelike state of arousal. I do that when I jack and edge. That means masturbating to the edge just before orgasm and stopping to let the sensation die down, then go again. Connie, I've gone 3 hours gooning to your Facebook pictures."
Connie blushed and put her hands over her mouth.
"Oh my God." She said.
"What are some fantasies that you have about us?" asked Eiza.
"Eiza, I've always thought about how good it would feel to have my dick in your mouth and how sexy it would look to cum in your mouth and on your face. I've also fantasized about you fucking me up the ass with a strap on while you reach around and jerk me off." The thought of Eiza doing those things brought my arousal level up. "Ohhhhhh god, I need to slow down." I slowed down and stopped my stroking to lower the arousal level. I didn't want to cum yet and wanted to let the excitement and all those wonderful sensations last.
"Emily and Connie, I've fantasized about making love to each of you, and putting a baby in both of you."
Connie smiled. "Oh my, you're a breeder, aren't you."
"Yes Connie, I'm a breeder. I'm a gooner. I'm a chronic masturbator. I LOVE MASTURBATING." I proclaim to the room.
I ask Emily to hand me a pillow. She grabs one of the sofa cushions and hands it to me. I stand up, set the chair aside and put the sofa cushion on the floor.
"Connie, this is how I would make love to you."
I mount the sofa cushion and start to slowly hump it. I'm on my forearms holding my body up as a rub against the fabric of the cushion, then I wrap my arms around it embracing it and start to vigorously fuck it. I'm grunting and groaning the entire time while I'm fucking it.
"I'll be your pillow fucker Connie. I don't want to pull out. I want to cum in you and put a baby in you. I'll be a good father. I promise." I moan as I continue to fuck the cushion.
After 10 minutes, I get off the sofa cushion and make my way back to the chair. I lube up my right hand and switch from my left to my right and start performing "The Hilary." I explain to all the ladies about Hilary Duff, her Maxim magazine, and the photos that got me to play with my frenulum using my right index finger.
"Ohhhhh Connie, this feels so good." I had to stop again because things were getting too intense.
"CONNIE, I CAN'T TAKE IT ANY MORE. I CAN'T HOLD BACK. I WANT TO CUM SO BADLY FOR YOU." I scream out to the room.
Connie leans in and tells me in a soft comforting voice. "Go ahead sweetie, it's ok. Let it go and enjoy yourself. Cum for me. Cum for Emily. Cum for Eiza. Cum for Mary. Cum for all of us."
I surrendered and went for it. I shot. Hard. The orgasm was so intense and lasting. I threw my head back, pushed my hips up in the air while finished with several more strokes. I shot streams of cum onto the coffee table in front of the ladies. "CONNIE I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I'M CUMMING I'M CUMMING. OH GOD IT FEELS SO GOOD. I LOVE YOU."
It finally happened. I came for Connie. In front of Connie while she watched me. At that moment I was in heaven. It was pure bliss. I sat in the chair and basked in the afterglow of a gooning session dedicated to and fantasizing about a woman who I have lusted after and loved for years, but had never been able to openly express my feelings for. I felt open, completely exposed, and vulnerable to Connie at her bachelorette party, and to Emily and Eiza. I had just met Mary and her first impression of me will be me with my dick in my hand confessing my most intimate thoughts and secrets to everyone. Mary openly admits to the room. "Oh my God, this is making me so wet." She says. Eiza chimes in. "Watching you masturbate is the most erotic thing I've ever seen. It's not like watching porn. I know you. Watching you and listening to you express your feelings like this feels so intimate. You put on quite the 'stroke show'. I'm wet too."
I wasn't sure what to do next, then Emily handed me some wipes to clean off. There was cum all over the coffee table and all of the ladies started wiping it off with their hands and taking my cum to their mouths to taste my essence. We continued our conversation talking about a variety of subjects for another hour before I got dressed. I told the ladies that I should leave so they can resume the rest of their activities. The ladies showed me to the door and got hugs and kisses from all of them. I asked Mary if we could connect on Facebook and Instagram so I can see more pictures of her and she said "yes". Connie was the last one to hug me and when she did she whispered in my ear "I've known this whole time how you've felt. I'm glad you told me. You can talk to me about anything anytime. You'll always be one of my best and closest friends."
I left the room and made my way back home, with spank bank material that I still go back to.
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