I am 56 year old skinny short 5ft3 tall wrinkled face thin lips green eyes gray haired soft butch single lesbian woman. People call me ugly alot of the times, and also make jokes about my looks. People always call me names. I think I'm ugly and you can tell me I'm beautiful but I won't believe it. There are so many odds against me but it doesn't change dealing with the feelings. And that's my problem. I'm so firm in my views and I don't know what to do. I have suffered taunts about being ugly,short and masculine. I suffered the worst bullying in high school, It was torture.
I am more sexually attracted to heterosexual ultrafeminine tall curvy attractive women. They turn me on. All the women I gotten far with were not my physical type. I just did what a lot of other short skinny ugly dykes seem to do and adjust to what the market has to offer. One of the things I've noticed over the years is that I'm always attracted to heterosexual tall curvy ultrafeminine women that I know are unavailable. For me the, taller a woman the better.
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If I see a tall classy elegant woman with big breasts on high heels walking down the street I will be aroused. Small breasts don't really do it for me. Every time i see tall feminine woman on high heels walking around with big massive breasts & butt cheeks swaying all over the place i lose control. For me the, taller a woman the better. I feel immensely attracted even standing next to tall,curvy, feminine women. It's been a pattern. Since i was a teenager I am more sexually attracted to ultrafeminine tall curvy heterosexual attractive women. They turn me on. My earliest sexual fantasies were about Sophia Loren.
Recently i found online this article about macrophilia. I read it. I realized that i have some sort of macrophilia. I have a preference for much taller curvy well endowed ultrafeminine women. That is a form of macrophilia. I have a preference for massive women at least 5 inches taller than me. Macro-sexuality is a sexual orientation and can be a fetish. Macrophilia is a sexual orientation to which translates to a "lover of large" and can involve partners who naturally have a significant difference in size. Macrophilia is used to specify someone who is attracted to beings much larger than themselves. I realized that i always attempt to experience the fetish in real life by casually touching extraordinarily tall curvy elegant women. I randomly walk up to tall curvy ultrafeminine women and start rubbing their back . I've also been known to do it to strangers too. I have the greatest trouble thinking rationally when i am around tall curvy classy glamorous women on high heels. Also I have a satin and silk fetish. It's something you get as a child, I don't know how. It's not a condition but it's also not a choice, so I have to live and die with it. For me nothing looks sexier on a woman than a shiny satin or silk outfit. I don't like to wear silk or satin clothes, i am just turned on by tall, curvy, ultrafeminine women dressed in elegant satin or silk clothes.